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• Volume III

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• Volume 1
• Volume II
• Volume III

if any of these five million links breaks just put me out of my misery

When will this release?
Whenever I finish my final revision, which should be around October of 2024! I have been working on this novel for about 9 years (with some breaks) so there is a lot to work through.

How long will it be?
Currently estimating about 450k words (roughly 1,800 pages), split between three volumes.
Will all three volumes release at once?
That's the current plan, but if there are delays I may settle on publishing one by one!

What will it be rated?
As a whole, it will be rated 17+ for mature themes, violence, and explicit sexual content.

Can I make fanworks for this?
Yes! For more detailed info on permitted use, visit the, copyright guidelines page

Will it be available internationally?
YES! That's the current plan - I will be using both Amazon and IngramSpark's global distribution for all formats, which should include most international Amazons, Barnes & Noble, Waterstones/Blackwell's, and more! For countries more difficult to reach, I might also open my own online shop to ship worldwide with USPS, depending on demand.

Will it be anything like your fanfiction?
For those who are coming from my AO3: this is written very differently, though of course I'm sure some similar trends may be recognized :)

Can I get an advance copy?
I may give partial copies of the final draft to a very limited number of people. If you are interested, let me know and I will make note of it!
Will there be an audiobook?
Not currently planned due to costs! I am funding everything for this book myself :)

How come you talk in all caps sometimes?
THAT IS HOW I USUALLY COMMUNICATE ONLINE (IM SORRY) BUT IM BEING SO NORMAL RIGHT NOW SO THIS CARRD CAN LOOK SLEEK AND COOL. ISNT IT COOL

Content WarningsThis story occasionally deals with heavy topics! I've made a list and tried to keep it spoiler-free. If you'd like to go in completely blind, you can forgo checking. Feel free to contact me for anything not listed or further explanation of any topic listed :)

• For full content warning list, click here!

Age Rating
There is no standard publishing system for age rating of books. I would personally recommend this book for ages 17+ due to heavy subject matter and explicit sexual content, but this is only a recommendation. Use discretion and the content warnings provided when deciding whether to begin or continue reading.However, interaction with the social media accounts for the book should generally be limited to 17+ users only!This book is not well-suited to be categorized as Young Adult literature.Does it have a happy ending?I recommend going in blind, but if you are someone who needs to know whether the story has a happy ending, click here!

Content WarningsI tried to list as many as I could come up with, which really makes this book sound like a Saw movie, but it's actually more mild than it seems. That said, I'd pay special attention to the first category.BEHOLD!Feature prominently or often:
Human blood and injury
Dead bodies
Suicide (graphic)
Violence (including gun, knife, etc.)Appear occasionally or for limited parts of the book:
Alcohol
Animal death and injury
Anxiety attacks
Captivity & Confinement
Child abuse
Claustrophobia
Drowning
Emesis/Emetophobia
Fire and burns
Hunting
Poverty
Racial, Ethnic, & Religious discrimination
Sex work
Sexually explicit scenes (consensual)Are mostly only mentioned or alluded to:
Alcoholism
Coerced marriage
Homophobia
Involuntary pregnancy
Misogyny
Sexual Assault
Surgery
Self-Harm
War

I've been receiving questions about fanworks, so I thought I'd put everything together here. The tl;dr is that if anyone draws or writes anything related to these characters, I'd LOVE to see it!!!Here are are some specifics on approved use:

Allowed:
-Making, posting, and selling fanart, including prints and any physical items
-Writing and posting fanfiction publicly
-Handmade bookbinding for personal use
-Sale of handmade bookbinding in small quantities (limit 6 per month)
-Printing copies of the book for personal use

Usually Allowed, Contact Me First
-Sale of printed copies in regions where it isn't commercially available
-Translating part of the text
-Sharing an edited machine translation

Not currently allowed
-Commercial sale of anything which includes the cover art or internal illustrations by other artists
-Derivative works of either the text or the art made by artificial intelligence

_{Note: Takedown notices for allowed use would only be issued in very limited & unlikely circumstances, such as translations being licensed or use of materials for discriminatory speech}


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